Having a Horrible Time, Be Glad You're Not Here

This has been a really terrible summer. I've tried being positive when I talk to people, but the truth is, it has been a truly awful time. And it keeps getting worse.

It started with the levy not passing, meaning I'm now on the job hunt track. Not fun. In fact, pretty stressful. My original plan for the summer had been to start writing a book I've had in my head for a while, but I haven't had any time to work on that at all. I also want to complete and try to sell a supplemental text for teachers. I've only been able to work on that once.

One of the main reasons I can't get anything done is the headaches I've been dealing with. Some days it is like a pressure from the middle of my head forward. I also get a lightheaded or 'swimming' head feeling. I feel a little muddled in my thinking, and I am always just so tired. I sometimes even feel nauseous. My doctor ordered tests, which I'll finally do this week. I am hoping it is hypothyroidism, because it would be an easy fix. I'm worried that it might not be that, which would be more tests, and who knows what else.

So you can see it is hard to work on anything feeling so bad. I've pulled back on the job search. My hope is to get certified in some other states and really start looking in January.

I do not need another problem, but I now have two. My toilet has started running and running. I tried to fix it myself with no luck. So I'll have to call my landlord tomorrow. Then, leaving church this morning I heard an awful noise from my breaks. They held, but there is definitely a problem with the left rear brake.

I can't get my car in this week until at least Thursday because I'm going to need to drive to M-burg for my tests on Wed. If I don't get it in until next week, and they don't get it done, there goes the family vacation for me. If I even feel up to driving.

Not even mentioning the cost of tests and brakes.

And the stupid mower needs fixed too.

You can understand why I just keep crying today.